11.11

I watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona today. I enjoyed it, a lot. 

I wished I had spanish wine.

I had french. The half bottle that was left over from last week. After that was finished, I opened a chilean one. amazing & almost finished.

I cooked pasta. I had pesto. Tasted like a nice couple. Eating my dinner and having wine; that's when I watched the movie.

I found so much in it that I could relate to. First about something I hate about me, something will never be able to change.

Cristina: No, I just have to come face to face with the fact that I am not gifted, you know? I-I can appreciate art and I love music, but...it's sad, really, because I feel like I have a lot to express and I am not gifted.

One more thing I found, about the way I have been changing, the way I was becoming. I saw how tasteless, and how lame it looks on the extreme. I will take a couple of steps backwards. just to make sure. to maintain.

I restarted studying Latin, after 4-5 years, that LAT111 course I had to withdraw because I was already taking 8 courses [personal record; oddly enough my personal record for highest SPA that semester].

I met this girl. we decided to be pen-pals. I feel like I am withholding too many things from myself. perhaps lying her about myself might help me see what I am not letting myself know. All fiction derives from true stories. bilincimin üste çıkmayı çok seven altı, allah belanı versin.

I met this Thai girl last week at starbucks while studying German. Someone reading english books and studying german somehow attracts attention. I met a swedish/german girl at the same spot too. anyway I was there today again as usual. she [the Thai girl] was not.

I wore my Nikes today. First time after washing them in the washign machine I am glad they survived. If I find the same shoes, I will buy at least two pairs. They are just gorgeous.




Every day at 11.11 pm I close my eyes and wish I wish I had some1 to wish for.

NP: Agua de Annique - Day After Yesterday

I used the label gulinvardar as a tribute to her motivating approach. many kisses.